Thursday, April 3, 2014
I’m a horrible blogger. I should be fired. Can you fire yourself? Anyway, it’s been too long! I was thinking this morning as I was scheduling appointments that I might not make it through the month of June. The list just keeps getting longer and longer. I’m an appointment binger. I schedule nothing for a couple of months and pretend that everything is completely fine and normal. Then it happens.. I get a sticky note home from school and suddenly there is a frenzy of phone calls to insurance and doctor’s offices. I’ve been on the phone and computer all morning.
Of course it never goes as planned. There is an extra slip of paper needed, the doctor is only here while you are on vacation, what you thought was no big deal has morphed into a really big deal, someone didn’t get your e-mail, Abbey’s back-pack ate your hand written note since the school’s e-mail provider is apparently is not speaking to yours, and the list goes on and on. There must be at least a hundred different obstacles to keeping it all together. I could, quite literally, go insane sometimes. Don’t think for a second that it hasn’t crossed my mind to just take that file of paperwork, the phone, and my insurance card and toss them all into the wood stove. It has! If it weren’t so lovely and sunny this morning I might just go back to bed…for a week!
I’m sure many of you can relate even if you don’t have a child with disabilities. Plenty of people have a job, or difficult family relationships, a stack of bills, or personal struggles that make you just want to walk away and pretend there’s nothing going on. Things in your life that are easier to just ignore then tackle. But as a popular song on the radio says, “we were made to be courageous.” Abbey’s needs don’t care if I’m exhausted, emotionally drained, or fighting over insurance. They need to be met now. Today if possible!
So right now, in this moment, I’m clinging to Joshua 1:9
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
I hope that verse encourages you too. If the Lord goes with us, then there is no need to feel dismayed and every reason to feel empowered with strength and courage. I can tackle the list, and so can you!