I’m a horrible blogger.
I should be fired. Can you fire
yourself? Anyway, it’s been too
long! I was thinking this morning as I
was scheduling appointments that I might not make it through the month of
June. The list just keeps getting longer
and longer. I’m an appointment
binger. I schedule nothing for a couple
of months and pretend that everything is completely fine and normal. Then it
happens.. I get a sticky note home from school and suddenly there is a frenzy
of phone calls to insurance and doctor’s offices. I’ve been on the phone and
computer all morning.
Of course it never goes as planned. There is an extra slip of paper needed, the
doctor is only here while you are on vacation, what you thought was no big deal
has morphed into a really big deal,
someone didn’t get your e-mail, Abbey’s back-pack ate your hand written note
since the school’s e-mail provider is apparently is not speaking to yours, and
the list goes on and on. There must be
at least a hundred different obstacles to keeping it all together. I could, quite literally, go insane
sometimes. Don’t think for a second that it hasn’t crossed my mind to just take
that file of paperwork, the phone, and my insurance card and toss them all into
the wood stove. It has! If it weren’t so lovely and sunny this
morning I might just go back to bed…for a week!
I’m sure many of you can relate even if you don’t have a child with disabilities. Plenty of people have a job, or difficult
family relationships, a stack of bills, or personal struggles that make you
just want to walk away and pretend there’s nothing going on. Things in your
life that are easier to just ignore then tackle. But as a popular song
on the radio says, “we were made to be courageous.” Abbey’s needs don’t care if I’m exhausted,
emotionally drained, or fighting over insurance. They need to be met now. Today if possible!
So right now, in this moment, I’m clinging to Joshua 1:9
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong
and courageous. Do not be
frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever
you go.”
I hope that
verse encourages you too. If the Lord
goes with us, then there is no need to feel dismayed and every reason to feel empowered
with strength and courage. I can tackle the list, and so can you!
